Well today is a rainy day and that means something to me. It seemed like every time Billy was having an extraordinary day it would rain, like it was a sign that he was doing ok! When ever I would ask God for a sign that he was ok, it would rain. Even now when I am having a bad day, I would ask for a sign that my precious Angel is ok, it seems like the sky would just open up and it would rain. To me, rain is tears falling from the sky, saying "Mommy, I'm ok!"
The evening of his funeral it started to rain and when we were all leaving a friend of ours was like" look up in the sky, look at the beautiful rainbow", It was like Billy was letting us know he's at peace, that he's ok! Its strange how the smallest things can have such meaning to someone!
I miss him so much! He wasn't suppose to die, he over came so much and he was doing so good, even the doctors couldn't believe how good he was doing, so I have to believe that it was a last minute decision that God made, that : An Angel in the book of life wrote down our baby's birth and on August 23rd she whispered... Too beautiful for Earth! Mommy misses you so so so much! I love you William Patrick Connors, xoxoxoxox
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