Time does not make things better!!!

Well, it a year today when everything started! I started my contractions and our lives turned upside down from here on! Time has flown by, but i feel like it was just yesterday! I thought time was suppose to heal, i guess its just too early for that now. We should be planning for his 1st birthday party right now, golly this really sucks!
I went and saw a doctor last week about getting pregnant without doing IVF and he said he would do his best to make it happen! I'm excited, but also scared. I go back on June 30th to figure out what his plans are! So cross your fingers and say lots of prayers!
Ahhhh... its so hard! My life is like so upside down!
Well, sorry for the short one today! Don't feel like typing :(
'till next time yall!